1. |
A Suit and a Gun
04:08
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I used to be so bored, so safe and sound,
when you showed me your ways and turned my world upside down,
and now I can’t help but stay with you,
amazed by everything you do.
You’re the devil, you’re a conman, you’re a sinner
and after all I’m just a beginner in this game
so can you teach me how to play
just to take my doubts away.
Chorus:
Come one, Jim, let’s break some hearts tonight,
let’s break some minds, some bones, let’s put up a fight,
let’s break some promises that we never made,
let’s misbehave.
No matter where you are I always keep you in sight,
and let me tell you that nothing ever felt more right
than putting bullets right through
the head of anyone who dares to touch you.
I love the way your twisted mind is always chasing
after something that can keep your heart from racing,
but nothing ever soothes your brain,
guess it’s too late to keep you sane.
Chorus
Living with you is like playing with an open flame,
but your kisses burn like ginger and I guess you are to blame
that we can have so much fun
with a westwood suit and a gun.
But you’re not Sherlock and I am not John,
and still I know that you are very wrong
when you assume that I won’t grieve at all
when you fall.
You’re like quicksand, you’re my marvel, you’re under my skin,
you’re the poison deep within my soul,
and I despise you and I hate you and I love you and I crave you.
I’d do anything for you
although I still don’t know what it is you do to me.
Chorus
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You never looked past my façade
a loyal soldier was what you saw
I had the limp, the pain, the scar
and you fell hard.
You ate up everything I cooked you
stayed exactly where I left you
believed in everything I said
it was too easy to lead you into my trap.
Chorus:
“Dear innocent Doctor John Watson
Can you heal me?
Can you help me?
Can you take away my pain?”
An actor and the role he plays
are not the same.
You thought you found a friend in me
which is why you believed so easily
in all the lies I stuffed you with
so I guess that the existence of your heart wasn’t just a myth.
Afghanistan or Iraq?
was the first thing that you asked.
And would you believe me if I said
that I never fought a war?
Chorus
But I’m still good with guns
and I still can have fun
Running around, leaving you scared
of gruesome nightmares.
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3. |
Brother Dear
03:36
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Brother dear, do you ever wonder if there’s something wrong with us?
We feel alien to the world around where everybody makes such a fuss
about things like love and sentiment and we don’t really understand
why we should care about anybody else but ourselves.
Chorus:
But after all blood is thicker than water
and after all you are my brother.
So please don’t run, please don’t hide,
please let me know if you’re alright
and please don’t look at me in that reproachful way.
Caring might not be an advantage but believe me when I say it’s true,
I really do care about you.
Please don’t take this personally but I need discipline and order in my life and you cause chaos anywhere you go.
I really messed up this time, I let you down and I am full of remorse, but I just need you to know
that you shouldn’t let me chose between you and my job because I don’t know what comes first and I don’t know what comes last.
So can we please come to terms with our past.
Chorus
I would never admit that in front of you but it’s true that I can’t keep track of your mind.
No matter how fast I run, no matter how hard I try, I’m always more than two steps behind.
You think you are so clever and so smart when really you are just insufferable and smug,
now tell me why I should take care of you if you don’t even let me try.
Chorus
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4. |
End of June
03:23
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I didn’t come to London to find love
and I didn’t come to London with enough
money in my pockets
I never thought I’d find a flat over here
and I never thought my troubles would disappear
once I met you for the first time
it’s weird to say that a morgue can feel like home
when it’s all just cold air, corpses and chrome
polished to shine like silver
chorus:
it’s the end of June
and very soon
dawn is here
but don’t fear
the moon is high,
you’re breathing low
take you’re stethoscope
and hear
my heart beat and my blood flow
but you are somewhere in the middle of it all
in a big lab coat that just makes you seem small
when you’re actually the tallest
I want to take you out for a ballroom dance
I don’t know the steps but there’s still a chance
‘cause you look like you do
I won’t nag about your lipstick or your hair
because I really think that it would not be fair
to nag about perfection
chorus
I have no idea what you do in your free time
build models of ship, play the guitar or secretly solve crime
even better than Sherlock
I’m wearing my heart on my sleeve, can you not see
and it flutters every time you and me
look into each other’s eyes
when you smile the whole world lights up
and honey, I’ll never get enough
you’re better than three continents at once
chorus
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5. |
On Keeping
03:01
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I said goodbye to London Town, left Bakerstreet behind
the yard can deal without me now and I don’t even mind
that I’ve got more time than I can spend
I got some books on keeping a garden and keeping bees
now let’s see how this will go
when I could never keep anyone
no women, not my brother, not my mom
chorus:
I will get a garden and I will learn how to keep bees
I will smoke a pipe as I sit under the trees
I might have Lestrade over for a cup of tea
and I will never be lonely
They say it takes patience and kindness and commitment to keep bees
and I don’t know if I have anything of that
but I will try and I will learn and I’d be glad
if there was someone I could show that I’m not a lost cause
and I can be so much kinder than the man that I once was
chorus
All through my life I watched people come and go
some stayed for a cup of tea, some didn’t even say hello
I hope my bees stay with me till the day I die
I hope they never question why
I’m sometimes moody, sometimes mean,
sometime not more than a machine,
I can be egoistic and I don’t know how to run away from my own mind
and remember that one time when you were upset and I was cruel when really I just didn’t want you to leave just yet
chorus
and dear doctor Watson, if you don’t mind I’d like to keep you
I learned to be patient and kind and if you want to
I can show you the bees in my garden and the birds in my heart
and we will never grow apart
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6. |
Dog Tags Along
03:12
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chorus:
marching soldiers clad in leather
stronger apart than they are together
dead hot sand in mouth and nose
as the sun on the horizon rose
Johnny boy, what got you shot?
was it your obedience or was it not?
you kicked him and punched him
and pushed him around
but like a good dog he still tags along
oh boy, where did I go wrong
I never found someone as good as him
you called him (by name or not -
who the hell cares)
and with two broken legs he’d still fly straight to you
what’s the secret, what’s a man gotta do
to get a loyal soldier live-in one
pre-chorus:
boy soldier - toy soldier
shot crushed shoulder - rolling boulder
far too heavy army boots
bullet holes in a captain’s suit
try holding a cup of tea
with hands riddled with PTSD
chorus
he says no and still comes along
his resistance is nonexistent
I want someone, too, who can make me tea
and then always complain as if he’d care about me
isn’t that exactly what John does with you
he’s a good soldier but face it
he’s a bad doctor, too
too fast with a gun and too slow with a knife
I’d never trust him with my life
what a nice bedrock for a partnership
chorus
his skin broken and scared
with a close-meshed net of battles
I don’t know where John begins and Dr Watson ends
one day he’s gonna bite the hand
that has fed him half his life
pre-chorus
chorus
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7. |
Heart Thief
02:28
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my fingers are getting raw
from plucking love songs
from the worn out strings
of my father’s old guitar
and I don’t know who I’m playing for
well, that is not quite true
but you are not awake right now
so what’s the point anymore
do you believe in love at first sight
or do you believe the world is such an awful place
that all we ever do
is fail and fall
and wail and call
with a defensive slogan on a shabby t-shirt
and the need to help everybody who’s hurt
chorus:
Watson, I’m not sober yet
I’m still quite drunk
on new relationships
I’m not usually that naïve
but you’re a heart thief
you don’t hate what I do
and I don’t hate you
if London is a leading lady
then what about New York?
if London was my brain
then this is my heart in a bottle with a cork
I guess you shouldn’t open it
what would you do with that much caffein
you’d probably rip it out of my chest
on a last try to keep me clean
chorus
please don’t try too hard to crack my code
I’ll only ever tell you how I feel
when we’re on the roof and watching bees
and you’re bored out of your mind
chorus
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When I was twenty one
reading Woolf and Wilde and worse
you were so young
learning about sex from
Lawrence, de Sade and Henry Gray
listening to Mozart and Morrissey
wearing your hair too long
you were sharp and headstrong
and you were so young
chorus:
and all you wanted to be was understood
all you wanted to know was how far you could go
all you wanted to do was break some rules
all I wanted to do was you
you are my only vice
and don’t come me with morality
when I can see
the hunger in your eyes
for something better, something more
and I will stare at you till my eyes are sore
till we forget our family names
and forget that they’re the same
and break the last rule in this game
chorus
I’m the only one who knows that you do have a heart
because it beats like mine
I’m the only one who knows how your brain works
because it works like mine
I’m the only one who knows how your blood drums in your veins
because it drums like mine
so won’t you be mine
the rest is history
but we are running out of time
I have to fight myself
while you are fighting crime
so lie back and think of England for me
you’re only as innocent as you want to be
I won’t regret a single day
wish I could make you stay
a little longer before I have to pay
chorus
I’m the only one who knows what your eyes see
because they see like mine
I’m the only one who knows what you dream about at night
because your dreams are like mine
I’m the only one who knows how your blood drums in your veins
because it drums like mine
so won’t you be mine
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9. |
And I Said
03:21
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Do as I say and never make me feel
do as you’re told and never make me look into your eyes again
Oh I sure don’t need you to kneel
to know you’re mine
Why did you stay when I told you to run
You know you won’t get a second chance
All the things you didn’t do
will be the death of you.
chorus:
And I remember the night you said:
let’s run away
let’s change our names
let’s leave this godforsaken life behind,
nobody has to die
and I said, sure tomorrow, and shot myself today
and I said, tiger, don’t you cry.
I don’t know whether you’re the one to blame
I don’t know when this stopped being a game
when I cried, I didn’t need you to see
and I prayed that after all you don’t care about me
and when I’m gone you’ll still have semtex
you’ll still have tiger documentaries on BBC
you’ll have your dog tags and ginger tea
you just won’t have me
chorus
There’s no what-if, no what-might-have-been
because we’re not ones to break easily
Still you should have seen
the look on your face when I set you free
Oh, I promised you the whole wide world
and I gave you less than nothing
and trust me I hate to be gone
because I’d love to watch you break and mend and move on.
chorus
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10. |
Time Waits For No One
03:06
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It’s been so long, another time, another place
just you were the same, always the same
just a little more callow, a little greener
but am I to blame?
And if you wanted to we could pretend
that we were young and stupid.
Except you were never stupid
and you were never really young
And nothing happened that you didn’t want.
chorus:
Time waits for no one
not even you.
I’m your ghost of Christmas past
I’m your fears and your faults
but I won’t tell how you tried to hold me fast
and the sins of our past won’t catch up with us.
I guess these days you are way more careful with your heart
than you were back then.
So I can tell you that my dog died years ago
and I’m a married man.
chorus
Does it really matter in the end
when you will not ever change
and if you still think no one wants to be your friend
all I can do is not punch you again.
Don’t be bitter, soldier on
I know you are strong
you look somewhat happy now with John.
chorus
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11. |
My Mind
02:24
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chorus:
this is my mind, my palace, my battlefield
my playground, my laboratory
here I’m a king, a ruler, a maker
a god, a creator
I’ve got rooms full of thoughts
halls full of memories
cabinets filled with people, places and names
I could take you in here and lock you up
and spin you around until you get lost
and wait for Stockholm’s to kick in
chorus
some walls are old as old as me
cupboards full of childhood dreams
I’ve locked my nightmares in here since I was three
there’re no maps and there is no guide
no signs on doors, no light in the night
it’s just a labyrinth made of solid fears and unbreakable pride
this room’s for John
here’s the way he likes his tea
the way he looks at me
when he’s scared, when he’s angry,
the way he looks at me
when he thinks I’m in danger.
chorus
every time I solve a new case I spin a new red thread
it opens new doors
cause in my mind no dead end is really dead
and I always come back to the doors that are closed
and I will knock and I will call
until you let me in
chorus
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12. |
Artificial Heart
04:45
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sweet morphine, my only mistress
pleasure me while scotland’s hunting down another case
if all lifes end why should I worry
why should I hurry to solve a murder that took place
but it is my soothing lover
the oil that makes my gears go ‘round
whether it’s in a syringe or in a riddle
I need a threat to shut my mind down
I wish the gods could entertain me
but they only gave me my cocaine
a potion that will keep me satisfied
but won’t help me to stay sane
chorus:
so talk to me
a little louder
push the needle in
a little deeper
lift me up
a little higher
let me run
a little further
let me lie
here on my own
and only wake me up
as soon as they have invented
an artificial heart
I should eat and I should drink
I should sleep and I should dream
or I shall sink in the water that flowed out
after my levee broke down
my friend ran off to live his life
so I sit alone on a table set for two
the tie burns a ring into my arm
my blood will never reach my heart
don’t worry, I’m just passing through
Let’s repeat it one more time
“I’m not afraid that I might fall “
I never spoke a bigger lie
but where we turn, I’m standing tall
I suck on my cigarette
like my life always sucks on me
Moriarty’s down the stream
who am I without an archenemy
I simply can observe what you can’t see
darkness and recklessness, a villain of my degree
my breath’s cut off, my cuffs are tight
my chest’s held down, my field of vision slowly turning white
chorus
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13. |
Genius Boy
02:33
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I looked into a mirror
and all I saw was you
your lovely bones so shattered and
your dear eyes so blue.
My breakfast tastes like concrete
my tea smells like reproach.
Oh, for god’s sake, what did I think that
I ever let you go.
Chorus:
You tore my heart to shreds one day
there’s still one story left to tell
no sunset and no happy ending
just a genius boy that fell.
My chest is always aching
a black bird trapped inside
how should I’ve known I’d feel so lost
without you as my guide.
Although my eyes are tired
I’m still looking for you
there will always be this urging hope
this dream that won’t come true.
I checked my pulse
and it had stopped
my hands are shaking
some pain on top
I lost the rhythm
I lost the beat
I forgot the words
to my own song
please make me feel
like I belong.
Chorus
And all the bruises that I feel
all the shadows that I see
are nothing but the memories
of a man I used to be.
Chorus
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14. |
Crimson
04:58
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it smells like rain outside
but you smell like so much more than rain
you smell like crimson
and in the blackest night
I turned to you for light
but all I saw was crimson
chorus:
Your sentiment will crush my soul
and your empathy will break my bones
tonight let’s not talk about that other man
that you won’t leave, oh I can’t win oh I can’t win oh I can’t win
and I know I’m only second choice but I will stay
even though I know I’m not the one you wanted in the first place
You’re an avalanche of strength and I’m a fallen king
now don’t make promises in the dark they don’t mean a thing
and what if you break my heart and
what if you let me bleed try and
choke on your crimson.
This isn’t something I planned
and I should get out as long as I can
but I’m drowning in your crimson
chorus
I met you once and I was told
that you’ve got a heart of gold
but we both know it’s crimson
you’re not a better man than me
Johnny boy, I have seen
how you tried to paint me crimson
chorus
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15. |
Three Years are Nothing
03:40
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No need to apologise
because three years are nothing nothing nothing
to know that you’re alive and well
and it’s so good to see you
so good to see that you’re still tall, you’re still dark, still a stranger.
And now there are things to do because Adair is dead and Moran’s still out there
but my house is not the one that’s empty anymore.
and just like you took my heart apart you put it back together
without missing a beat.
Chorus:
Oh god, I really think I can do this.
I really think we will be fine
and this time I will hold you fast
and we’ll be fine.
You’ll have to teach me how to run again
because there’s rust in the joints of my knees.
Can you make it better?
Let me unbutton the cuffs on your shirt
and let me sit you down and make you tea
and let me tell you what I saw and let me tell you what I thought and let me tell you what I felt
when you weren't with me.
Chorus
You’ll have to teach me how to smile again
because there rust in the corners of my mouth.
Can you kiss it better?
Please take my cane away
and sit me down and make me tea
now tell me what you saw and tell me what you thought and tell me what you felt
when you weren't with me.
Chorus
Teach me how to breathe again
because I held my breath every second you were gone
and now the air tastes sharp and fresh and outright,
like a knife, like ginger, like you
and I feel alive.
and before I have time to catch my breath
you smile and you say “Let’s do everything again.”
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16. |
My Dear Obsession
03:11
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Walking side by side forever
we are destined for each other
you’re my teacher and my slave
you’re my lover and my brother
Please stop pretending
that you’re just trying to be good
just admit you wanted to outwit me
merely to prove that you could
Chorus:
ah ah ah I’m staying alive
while you struggle to survive
you can hurry
and you can fall
but there’s no chance for you
to outrun me at all
Sherly, you’re a walking challenge
you are the brightest mind
and still you fail to catch me
justice really must be blind
When I say I really need you
with a hot burning passion
it means I love you and I hate you
you’re the centre of my obsession
Let’s live alone but let’s die together
let’s all our promises come true
did your mother fail to tell you
that if somebody jumps off a cliff
you don’t jump, too?
Chorus
If this is a sinking ship
I will go down with it
I’ll pretend I am your friend
and we’ll walk into the sunset hand in hand
Chorus
We could’ve buried all this strife forever
could’ve ruled this world together
leaving all this ordinary minds behind
archieving the unbelievable with our intellects combined
Chorus
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17. |
Dum Spiro, Spero
04:41
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I found myself talking to a faceless boy
in the middle of our living room
with raven hair and dirty feet
a thick book in his hand
he hadn’t been there the day before
and I didn’t know his name
but he talked to me and I talked back
like he was an old friend
from that time on the boy appeared and vanished
his face was a blurry mess
and I digged out a few photographs
of someone who looked like him
chorus:
oh, I know that you’ve died
but you still have survived
I can still feel your touch
and hear your voice
but when I sobered up one lonely night
he began to flicker like a broken TV
blood shot from his ears and his nose
and he fell to the floor
he aged a dozen years at once
and turned into someone I knew
someone who gave his life for me
someone I shouldn’t see
chorus
I banged my head against the wall
to lose that hallucination
the dead man vanished instantly
and once again I was all alone
alone with my gun and my trigger
with my newspapers and my mirror
and I wished I wouldn’t have said what I said
and I wished that boy would come back
so I kept staring at a white wall
and said I need you now, here with me
and cried myself to sleep at night
while hanging onto memories
chorus
the next day when I was watching the news
the boy was there again
he sat down next to me without saying a word
and didn’t reply when I said hi
I found myself talking to a faceless boy
who stayed for a cup of tea
he had sharp cheekbones and clueless eyes
and long words on his lips
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